nafas tersekat-sekat, berjalan tak cukup tanah

Salam.
How long haven't I updated my blog?
forty years?

for the past 2 weeks, my life was soooooooo freaking hectic!
sometimes, I could feel that I was walking or doing things subconsciously. ahaha.
penatlah.
with the bio fare thing.
and kawad kaki competition coming up like in next two weeks.
then nak kena siapkan report lagik.
nak kena catch up dengan study lagik.
i have a chemistry quiz waiting for me tomorrow.
*sigh*

for the past few days, i have been emotionally unstable.
ahaha.
it started when my dad called me and informed me that i may not be able to mohon for that dentistry-in-indonesia thing.
and the chances of me not getting to study in dentistry.
he told me that i have to accept the reality...and stuff that if i'm going to repeat it here, it will make me become emotionally unstable again...
ahaha.
i sound like orang tak betul lak en.
after that, with some more incidents happened to me before, i have become numb.
it's like, you couldn't feel anything. you couldnt even think. You just go...blah.

Physically I'm happy, but emotionally? Nah.
But yesterday my mom came to visit me.
and my roommate said i look different. happier she meant.
oh well.
i guess your parents are the best person to turn to whenever you're having an emotional breakdown.
ngeh2.

hari jumaat hari tu sms timah.

"Mah, kau ada kat bilik tak lepas pukul 12?"
"Pukul 2 ada sesi fotografi. 2 setengah ada discussion."
"Ohh. baru ingat nak buat sesi mengs kat kau sat. huhu."
"Dtg ar bilik aku. aku pun nak ngs gak sebenarnya"

aku pun dengan gembiranya pergi ke bilik timah lepas makan.
masuk2 jek bilik timah,terus meluru ke katil and amik that one whole packet full of sweets.
Mah gelak.
"Kau sorang je taw yang makan benda tu kat bilik aku neh."
aku senyum je lah. ahaha. sebab sweets tu memang sedap en.
sambil makan, tanya mah what is actually her problem.
"Aku sakit perut sebenarnya."
KURANG HASAM KAMU TIMAH!
Hahaha.

punye cuaklah aku ingatkan gaduh dengan madi ke, hapa ke.
rupa-rupanya sakit perut.
bertuah punya kawan.
ahah.

Timah, nak jenjalan dengan kau!

so pagi tadik bangun.
semayang subuh.
den pergi jog.
memula ingat nak jog kat depan, kat padang besar tu.
tapi rasa macam malas plak en.
and besides the fact that cuaca kat bukit belakang b5 tu mcm best and windy and penuh ngan kabus...
mcm meng-invite kitorang pergi jog kat situ jek.
ahah.
as usual.
after jog mesti ada sesi fotografi.
sesorang dok jadi photographer tak bertauliah tadik.ngeh2.

YEYE DAH DAPAT SEASON 1 AND SEASON 2 GOSSIP GIRL!!
HEPI GILE DOHHHH!!

lagi sebulan je kan. so i have to cherish every moment i have here.
brace myself and face it without any complaints or whatsoever.
sebab benda macam ni berlaku sekali jek seumur hidup.
dah besar nanti susah nak ada dlm situasi mcm ni lagik.
pergi kelas, balik kelas, pergi makan, pergi unit, pergi lepak depan lib, pergi kafe, outing sesama, buat heart-to-heart talk at times.
benda ni sume dah jadi macam asam garam life aku kat sini.

heheh.
sebelum aku terus merapik ala-ala dr.phil punya intern kat sini.
it's better for me to leave.
aku pun dah penat nak duk kat library ni.
lagipun azan zuhur dah berkumandang..
sooo...

so.
i guess i better end this little chapter of this blog.
hehe.

toodles.
Assalamualaikum.

XOXO